I miss crashing forum weddings, honestly. XD It was an odd hobby.

The reason I'd joined the original forum was because in my 6th grade year, I'd decided to go back to public school after having been homeschooled since 4th grade. I wanted to see what it was like, and if I'd like it better than being homeschooled, and during that year it sucked. A friend I'd known since Kindergarten stopped talking to me at some point, and I thought it was because she hated me or that I'd somehow done something to make her not want to talk to me anymore, which I had, at a later time, figured out it had been due to issues both with herself and her family at that time and wasn't actually because of me at all. But during the time when she wasn't talking to me, everything else around me got worse too. I didn't have friends at school, at least not really. I spent most of the semester figuring out where I was supposed to be for lunch room table seating, what "group" I was supposed to be in. So I literally would sit anywhere at first, sometimes at tables where I knew no one on the off chance I could possibly make friends. That never happened, but I did at one point stumble upon a table that I did fit in with, one that another friend of mine who was a year older than me was pretty much the leader of. I called it the goth/misfit table, and I think they referred to it as such as well. Now, being with them was nice, they were all funny and pretty cool, though somethings I didn't really agree with, like sometimes they'd take the food of one of the guys that sat with us, just little things like some of his french fries, etc. I got to where I sat with them every day, and that was all fun and good. Well, at some point I quit seeing them as actually being friends, had somehow picked up another supposed friend, who followed me around pretty much like a shadow.. a nonstop talking shadow, at that. I never felt like I was really a friend with her either. She seemed to act like I was, though, talked a lot and was sad at the end of the year when I told her I was going back to being homeschooled because I didn't like the whole public school thing.

But anyway, all that backstory is pretty much why I had joined. All that time, I was made fun of by other students, in class and out, was threated by a girl a lot larger than me, saying she was going to punch me then asked if I was scared or not, and after whatever my reply had been, laughed and went inside like nothing happened. Had guys in that same class as her that were rude to me, meanwhile my shadow of a friend never really did much about it and was teased as much as I was. And since she spent so much time around with me, and because we had the same brown hair color, begun being referred to as The Twins, by some people. At some point I was just tired of it. Stopped caring for myself properly, and at one point I told one of my other friends that I'd known since Kindergarten, since we'd shared a class together and was out in the hallway one day, that I wasn't feeling alright or caring about anything via mentioning that I hadn't worn a different color other than black in a couple of weeks, that me and her went and saw the school counselor, through her suggestion and me asking her if she'd go with me. And that's how I'd learned that there were a lot more people making fun of me than I'd thought there was, and then I'd actually started seeing it via how certain people acted in the class I was in. I had this one girl who would constantly kick the back of my desk and a boy that she seemingly had under her wing, that used to be a really nice guy, that was just as rude as she was. So at some point I had to get moved away from them two, just to stop being bothered by them.
At some point during that year, I made an account on here, decided if anything, I was going to make friends one way or another, even if it was online. At least here no one can really judge you based on how you actually are and people get to know you through your words and actions, etc., versus how you look or anything else. I actually found the old forum through having a bookmark from a Naruto volume. XD And then had my account, used it for a couple of months and talked to a few people like Katsuki, and then disappeared for a year and remembered about the site again via finding that bookmark and stayed up until the old site closed down.

I regret a lot, some of the things I did, especially the millions of horrendous thread I'd make. XD Some of them were good though, and I enjoyed everyone I got to talk to on there, even the whole bunch of guys I wasn't totally for sure why, that liked me. xD Which I was clueless about, except for like one, so.. yeah. I regret the fact that I had a relationship with two guys on there and neither of them worked out. The first one wasn't even really real to me, since it happened when I was only like 13 or so, so what did I know. I am glad though, that I did get to make the friends that I did, and that I still have quite a few today that I still talk to and can consider friends. I might not actually personally know any of you in RL, but you're all friends of mine. Even if I don't totally know how to show it or how to act about it. xD I actually do care a lot about ya.
Only other thing I could say I remotely regret is not providing people with a lot of info about me.. xD Like no one except for one person, whom I don't even talk to anymore, knows what I even look like. o.o Which feels impersonal, since most of you all probably know what a lot of the rest of you look like, I'm guessing.